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Womanhood and femininity development crises.
This topic excites me quite a long time. Site for nearly three years. And I see many women first get a positive result, and then roll back happens, the crisis. Before a woman gets a choice:
1. Continue no matter what
2.Prodolzhayu, but I’ll do an audit
3.Komu need this femininity?
Most often selected first and third options. In any case, these are the most common letters – in a post on the forum, in conversation. Yesterday I came across a forum thread that discussed – and quite rapidly in this topic. Thanks to her, I wanted to reiterate the dark and light bands in the development of women. And the maturity.
Many of the girls, reading a book or a website, they see the image of the “ideal woman” thus: “I’m a girl, I do not want to decide anything, I want platishke». Is it their fault or the emphasis placed not entirely accurate?
When I started writing, I was writing about himself. My way is that I have grown up boy. And the harmonious girly I did not have. But I always swing right at home, at school – everywhere.
For me, it was easy to deny someone who I did not like. Resolve something in me a lot. I refuse to always easy – and almost everything. Is that her friends were not so easy. Was easy for me to break the relationship that hurt me.
But I could not both. I do not know how to ask. Pay for myself in the cafe. Did not make any first steps – even for the reconciliation did not know how to forgive, apologize. And to maintain the relationship, too. For me it was a categorical – either-or. Or, in my opinion, or goodbye.
So on the way I learned what you do not know how I am – because of my development. I revived a little girl, which is easy to ask, cry, blow. And also easy to make peace again, wonder and laugh. With that I was difficult. Oh well it was – still sometimes find myself thinking that somewhere it would be easier … But the very force myself-did ask. Because for the family – where there is not just me – it will be better.
A separate topic for me was the theme of service. I’m an only child who never strained household chores. And did not know how to cook by themselves, and with washing floors was not friends. Used to think only of themselves (and who else to think if my mother at work and at home I?). Always carry an apple from the fridge. Then I remember that I am not alone. And take at least one more apple. Even if the husband refuses – it will be nice.
But it is closer to 16 I decided to be a boy again, this time permanently. Next there was a splash of femininity for a year before I met my husband. It started with the pink coat, which I barely bargained mom. Then there were the pink dress (which is generally enough). The hair also started to grow back. Wanted to attend training on plastic, sexuality, and not only to achieve the goals.
For sure it is on this natural wave, then do not sound anything other than God’s hands, and I got married. Pregnancy is a time to renew. But after … After I was back in the familiar outline of a man’s – but with a new song: “You owe me!”
It is not known how many would have been such periods and sub-periods, if it is not knowledge. For me, mosaics appear. Because the happiest years of my life – it’s just the ones where femininity put me on the shoulder. And the knowledge has helped me to make an informed choice. Do not just go with the flow like a log hormones. And to choose the way I think and how to act.
And of course, I had to reconstruct precisely the steps that I have missed. In my life, for example, used to dress almost was not. In kindergarten, a few, a few for school parties. Therefore, the transition to the skirt made such drastic changes in my life. I lived that was not lived. And if you have always had them, then you can even do not notice. Or – if you do not have enough responsibility for their lives – for you can be a good training pants are comfortable for you. For a while.